seven.seven.

7-7-7, i hoped it could have been a good day for me, just like 6-6-6.. only that, when it's at night time my luck changes.. and just like 6-6-6.. the same way happened to 7-7-7. *sigh*.. i wonder.. and keep thinking i've been doing foolish things, is that why luck is not with me??

actually i really had fun within the day. i hanged along w/ trixie (she's my new classmate btw,) and we went shopping ang supposedly we had to attend a basketball practice.. but it was raining really bad..(we even run through the rain from the parking lot to the mall, we we're soaking wet and people just stared at us.. trixie convinced me to do it! haha).. anyway just to describe that my day was pretty normal, at dinner we went to an inn and even had a ktv by the bar.. there was no people so we had the venue all to ourselves.. and we sang..and sang..and sang..and danced too..it's really fun...her family is nice, and i'd really love to hang out with them again nextime..

but when i arrived home at 9:30.. things didnt turn my way again..(just like always).. i had an arguement with my brother.. and whatever it was and it ended up the same..my dad was dissapointed with me..again, he sided with my brother.. he scolded me, telling me that i should show kindess towards him..hello, he already made me cry 3 times, strike 3 for this week.. he's getting in my nerves already....and i've had enough. i really do. ._. my dad starts to give a threat about disconnecting the dsl..(i hate it when he does that!! T.T).. so i didnt have a choice.. i couldn't even reason out. shet.

i cried, again..cry..cry..cry, my brother didnt even cared.. but that was to be expected from him, my dad said lots of things and for me they were all pointless.. it didnt even help one bit to cheer me up.. he was just there looking at me and said i didnt look good whenever i cry.. haha.. when i feel upset i get over it all alone, i dont call anyone and i dont run to anyone.. just to myself.. (is it like i try to be strong?) i guess that's really me...i'd cry and to talk to myself.. "why is this happening to me..." bakit nga kaya? -_-

but on the other side im still that "optimistic" girl anyway, i cry things over and the next day im back to normal.. (sometimes i hate it now) nothing happens, and because of that im really taken for granted. they take it as an advantage. i easily forgive but i dont forget.. so there, i dont know how to deal with my brother anymore, if he doesnt need a sister than i dont need him too (sorry for being mean) but i tell you he's meaner.crap. if he apologizes to me i'd reconsider anyway.. i still care for them......sigh.. im tired of crying.. my tears dont even taste like saltysalty anymore (haha) seriously! hayy.. but i could never deal with all of this if not for my friends.. all of them.. online, and at school..they're the only ones that keeps me alive.. ^_^;; thank you.. now im ending this blog entree with a smile on my face ^_^;; smile......

p.s il make my bro feel sorry.. bwahahaha -_-


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